I am NOT a diva girl.

First of all, I would like to apologize for not blogging! I’ve been very tired—crashing mid-afternoon, in fact. With college right around the corner, I have to get ready, track packages and buying supplies. I’ll be taking religion and math this semester. (*cry* No sleep again.)

I’ve been flipping through camcorders to do videos with, but I haven’t settled on a brand I like. It’s been especially tough finding an affordable one. If I manage to find something, I will definitely let you know about it.

Anyway, let’s get to my post.

I’ve been watching Youtube videos on make-up, herbalism and art. (Believe it or not.) Sometimes, I’ll throw in a documentary, science or history bit, but I’ve mostly watched make-up and nail tutorials. I am not a diva girl, though, so watching them is kind of weird. (You know—watch, but never use it.)

Although, to be fair, I’ve been doing my nails, experimenting with make up and looking into yoga. I wanted to improve myself—get healthy. (That is not the reason I’m doing it, though.) If I had to film right now, I’d have no make up and fresh shower hair. It’s a normal look for me because I hardly bother with make-up. The only girlish indulgence I have is my nails, which is a nice shimmering blue with silver sparkles.

Me (without make-up and hair undone)

Me (without make-up and hair undone)

« Here I am right now. (That picture looks better smaller than it does enlarged. It’s blurry in a larger size.) Usually, I’ll have my hair up or braided down my back. I rarely let it fall into my face, but I do plan on getting it layered, so I don’t have to put it up constantly. I’ve been hoping to add bangs, but I have curly hair, so I have to be careful.

Are you surprised? For some reason, many people expect a caucasian, middle-aged woman. Either that or someone that looks more mystical. I don’t know exactly how to feel about it, but I’m not entirely offended.

When I tell people that I’m Pagan or a Witch, they’ll say, “Oh. Okay…but you’re Asian, right?”

Like Asians can’t practice witchcraft.

Maybe people expect me to be more techno or diva savvy, since so many Asians seem to be. Unless you’ve seen me apply make-up, you’d have a hard time believing how badly I can make myself look. Sadly, I didn’t inherit my mother’s ability with make-up. I just learned to dress myself without looking stupid, so go figure.

No judging, though. I was a true tomboy—not your giggling girly girl child. I wasn’t even interested in working on my hair till I recently. Before that point, it was shoved up into a ponytail or a messy braid. You’d find very little make-up and no nail polish in my room. Other than romance novels and a little clutter, there’s not much indication of a girl living in my room. (Could the orange color on my walls be a sign?)

I hope to gain a little grace before filming a video. Witchcraft is a breeze, but make-up and hair make me look foolish.

I guess I wanted to experiment with make-up and hair to watch the comments I get. A true diva of a Witch. What will people think? Until I get a little motivation, though, I’m just your average, quirky young woman.